When I am weak, I am strong

** First week of school**
The outlook of this semester keeps changing. Its forecasts were partly cloudy on Mondays with a slight chance of free time but now, not so much. Tuesday seemed to promise a bit more sunshine for the weeks to come but by 2pm that afternoon, the radar showed a group of storm clouds blowing in from the east.


As Wednesday morning come upon the hour or midnight, i laid down to rest for a bit. Note the lack of the word sleep here. On this day, I was to baby sit, go to three classes, and then to work at the Help desk with church following that. As it was also to be 80's day, I thought it might be alright all dressed up and having fun. But when Lillie arrived in the morning, so did the rain, literally. So I pulled on a hat, grabbed my bags and Lillie's hand and headed out the door with my umbrella over my head.


I'm enrolled in 17 hours of class, and working 26 plus hours a week between two jobs. Besides my two intro classes (Psychology and Sociology, I'm in Elementary to Japanese, Acts: The Early Church, and Statistics for Social Sciences 2053. I'm also leading life group on Monday nights at 8pm. Not to mention becomes a Team Lead at the Student Union computer lab last week. With in the last four days of class, I have already had two Sugar Daddy's. This being a highly sweet, frozen coffee drink that one can get in the Student Union a t Java Dave's. I love the taste and it's made me a bit happier as I walk around this wet campus in the mornings.

**Week Two**
Continuing from where I left off, I had a good weekend. Was productive enough to get my bed set up and my room organized more that it was (meaning that clothes aren't all over the floor anymore). Worked a few hours and swam out at the lake for a bit with Ryan, Erin, Josh, and Liz from the UC. Watched movies with the movie gang. But besides all that, I had a really good conversation with my dad about God and where God is.

We had rented the movie fireproof one weekend before school started and spent a few weeks contemplating it. This weekend when I went home to visit with my dad, he and I talked for quite so time about things that were sort of bothering me and how I was dealing with them. It was the most peaceful time I had had all wee long. One thing I talked to him about was that I had been struggling spiritually to keep for the focus of my life instead of work and school. At this point, he brought up the movie fire proof. The scene of the wife finding the book.

Wife: I've read it. It goes for forty days. What day are you on?
Husband: Forty-three...

My dad "When I was watching that part and her husband said that, I couldn't help but think 'What day is God on with me?' Kalin, what day is God on with you?"

I don't recall saying anything at that moment. Just soaking in the wisdom of my father that was reclining in his old chair before me.

What day is God on with me? How long has he been doing these wonderful things for me to get my attention so I turn fully to him. I do claim him as the love of my life after all. He's like a husband trying to ensure that my marriage to him doesn't fall apart but rather grow stronger and us closer together. But he's not my husband, he's my father. A father who will not let go nor leave my side till the end of this earth.

I left my home with an old familiar warmth in my heart.

The rest of the week was stressful and frustrating with a few good memories with friends in the mix. Ryan had his birthday on Wednesday and Liz and I fixed him a cake. There are also a number of new freshman that I think I will soon count as close friends. It was not all bad but it sure was full of trials. I'm alive and kickin though so that somethin.

**Start of week Three**

So, now to the present. The UC hosted the annual freshman/sophomore advance this weekend in which Liz and I attended. And let me tell you, after the time I've had lately, it was time to take a break and just remember exactly who God is. The lessons that were taught over the course of about 20 hours were many. How to look to our heavenly Father as our north star. Being strong christian sisters that stand shoulder to shoulder. Life is going to be an obstacle to work though and will drag you down if you let it but if you have the strength and focus of God, you will make it though just fine. God should not be first in your life but rather the Only in your life. And others that were more personal.

Along with the whole "love God thing" :), there was a great amount of bounding time for the freshman and sophomores. As I did last year, I stayed up later than the majority of the campers to play Egyptian War with my new friends. This was of course, our second game only after a round of clue. Least to say, we were some of the last ones to get up in the morning.

Enough explanations for now. There's almost to much to read. I'll finish with this, I had a great weekend and I am ready to balance my life now with the aid of my faith in my God, and those that I love and whom also love me. I have been weak but its only then that I can truly be strong for He becomes my strength. Glory be to Him alone.

Thanks for all the prayers and encouragement.

-Aeriel <3